I feel like I'm in an abusive television relationship with you. You will kick me in the emotional gut and I'll swear to myself that I'm NEVER watch again. Yet, somehow you always seem to pull me back in. Also, I'm a masochist.
The first few seasons were amazing. It almost pains me to watch them again now, but I've learned that I have to take you for what you are now and not compare you to who you were then. Through all the characters that have come and gone (and many, many characters have come and gone) the magic that the original cast has never been recaptured. The chemistry between Meredith and Derek, Christina and Burke, Izzy and Alex, Mark and Lexie, Arizona and Callie...none of the current couples can even hold a candle. Jackson and April came closest for me, but April is leaving. Glasses is not George.
Honestly, I wasn't too upset when George died. I felt like his character did all he needed to do and the way you killed him off was absolutely brilliant. You have a way of taking a lackluster season and delivering a killer finale. When Lexie died I was done, I swore I'd never watch again. Only I had to see what happened with Mark. I was actually OK when he died because he would be reunited with Lexie in heaven thus making them the ONLY Grey's couple that I loved to end up together, albeit in a tragic way.
When Derek died, I was REALLY done. Or so I told myself. His death was awful. It felt rushed, it was so frustrating and it just seemed mean. How does Grey's go on without Mcdreamy? You killed McDreamy and McSteamy! Any attempt at sex in the on call room seems forced. Christina Yang was given such a perfect send off and that made me OK with her leaving. Sure, I miss her but you really brought her story full circle. And we have hope that one day, she might come back to Seattle Grace if even for one episode. You even brought Burke back, which made my heart happy. I didn't love the actions the actor who played him took, but I loved his character and he was so important to Christina's story. You realized that and I appreciated it. Derek though...what the actual fuck. I'm still mad about it.
You're probably asking why I started watching again. Two words: Martin Henderson. I love him. He starred in this random romantic comedy called Perfect Opposites, which probably no one else has seen, but I just love it. I actually didn't mind him and Meredith together. I liked that they both lost the loves of their lives and could empathize with each other. They weren't replacing their true soulmates, they were just deciding they had a right to be happy. Of course, then it turns out Martin Henderson's soulmate was still alive and he got to leave and be happy with her.
At this point, the only characters I really care about are the ones I've known the longest. Meredith of course, Bailey, Dr. Webber and Alex. I have grown to like April and I really like Arizona, but turns out that of all the actors to cut..it's them. Deluca is hot and meh and I don't know why I could care less about him, but I just could care less about him. Last night's episode with Sam being a Dreamer was interesting, but I wasn't all that invested in their relationship. Owen and Amelia - UGH. I like Owen, but I wouldn't really miss him. If he moved to Germany to be with Teddy, I'd be fine with that. One would think I'd like that there is still a Dr. Shepard, but she's pretty insufferable. I do not care about any of the new interns. Not one. I'm fine with Jo. I've liked Camilla Luddington ever since she played Kate Middleton and the made for TV version of William and Kate's love story. She and Alex are cute I guess but...Izzy though.
Maggie. Oh Maggie. I want to like her. She's nice enough. I like that she knows she's awkward. I think that she and Jackson have zero chemistry. Which is crazy, because Jackson is so insanely hot you would think he could have chemistry with anyone. But it just doesn't work. Stop trying to make Jaggie happen.
There have been a lot of amazing characters and a lot of really sucky ones. Most of them you've realized and either killed them off a crazy hospital shooting or sent them away (Dr. Hahn, Eliza whatever). You will do things and give a glimmer of hope like Scott Speedman. I love me some Scott Speedman and I do want Meredith to be happy. Poor woman has lost so many friends, her sister, her husband. She had a tumultuous relationship with her parents and they died too. She's suffered a plane crash, a shooting, a bomb, a miscarriage, a brutal attack, nearly drowning yet still managed to get a Harper Avery Award and be a strong independent woman and great mother. You have surpassed Private Practice and even scandal. I'd say you should have left the party a long time ago, but at the same time...I'm still watching.
I'm curious to see how Arizona and April will leave even though I don't want them to leave. Please don't kill them. I'm curious to see if Meredith will ever find her happy ending. Obviously, Derek won't be waiting for her at the edge of a dock like George Clooney in ER. So I'm hoping he's waiting for her on the other side of an elevator. The elevator to heaven. The best ending for me is honestly if Meredith Grey were to die so she can be reunited with Derek. And Lexie, Mark, George, her mom, Denny Duquette and all the other friends we've lost along the way.
